laugh- paranoia

My job search has resumed.

It's my first day, unemployed, since May of 2007. Im not sure how I feel about that by any means. I do know that its freakin cold in my apartment- lower 60s, and it won't warm up!! the heat doesn't work when temperatures are so cold. I could go ask the office, but that seems unfair- maybe everyone's doesn't work, its not their fault its so cold.

Writing on this blog is strange. It's so free to post whatever I want. Even more free than my paranoid thoughts believed. See, I googled myself and I gotta laugh- my common name hides me so well. I always make fun of my not-so-new last name. I love my name and everything, but I just poke fun at the fact that its SO common. But, I couldn't be happier now, that my last name is Jones. I searched through 8 google pages and couldn't find my blogs and facebook. That's GREAT!! While I love the online community and the fact that friends are so accessible, I was starting to get really paranoid that my potential employers were going to find my blogs and other sites and judge me before hiring me. Maybe they could try other searches, but on google- I'm pretty hidden. All you'll find is a soap opera star and some other famous people way more interesting than me.

Another weird feeling about writing on this particular blog is I feel kind of alone writing on it. I haven't told many people about it, and I feel like I'm talking to myself. In my case, this is ok, because sometimes I just have to get thoughts out and written down in organized thought so I don't make myself crazy. I'm more free to be myself on here too, if I don't think 100 people could read it.

I have to email a friend now. Bye, self.

*correction- I found myself via my name and city, but it's a really old profile with the wrong info anyway. so you can stalk someone online, but I wouldn't recommend it.