Horray!!

I just got a relieving message. Sometimes I'm so paranoid. My guilt created a reason for someone to be upset with me, but they aren't! One less thing to worry about!

I have a busy week planned. I seem to be stepping out of my comfort zone so much lately. It's good for me, yet creates more worry and stress. At my job, I volunteered to teach phonics for 2 weeks before the new teacher gets there. I did not know that it would be starting tomorrow. AHHH!! Technically, Friday was the other teacher's last day, but they talked her into staying one more day (today) so she could train me in. We are so lucky that she is so extremely organized because i might actually do ok. It's very scary to be in charge of 7 groups of children at all different levels. Each one even uses a different teaching manual! The unfortunate thing is that I am in charge of teaching my own class for the next 2 weeks but I won't be in the classroom because of teaching Phonics. That means I have to do the planning and prepping for both, and my co-teacher has to carry out the lesson plans i made up. Awkward!! I hope I don't end up planning all these things that we don't end up doing! I am kind of bummed to miss the alphabits band. :( ha.

A friend at work made me banana bread. She's so sweet.

I hate when the drain in the bathroom sink is slow and all i see is a pool of white from the toothpaste i just spit out. There's something gross about white and teeth grime floating around in water.

I've been lucky to have many fun events happen lately. I keep remembering how fun the Rancid/MXPX concert was!! I went to my cousin's wedding and it was a big and loud wedding- the best kind! Many gave speeches and some sang songs even. We all danced to songs from the 90's until 1 am. On Sunday, we went to Heather's benefit. It was the strangest thing "celebrating" one's life because she, in fact, died. It was fun and I loved seeing all the families outside of what I refer to as "work".

We watched American Meth today with a few friends. Quite the movie. I felt sad for the families whose lives are run by the addiction to meth. I tried to recognize the sadness I felt from the movie as a good thing, because I want to be affected by these things in life. I want feel the need to help, even if i can't. The movie supposedly ended with hope, but that hope is thin and easy to see through. The choices were made and they will live with them. I guess the hope lies in that the users really did stop and won't go back.

I feel like I have some sort of plan for the next year. There's been a few events that have affected my view on life, and perhaps some of my goals. Of course, anything could change, anything could happen.