Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I find joy in new gadgets/experiences.....
but they make me so nervous and sometimes anxious!
I enjoy that you can "follow" blogs on here now. I kept forgetting people's blogs and what they are called. Now I can find them easily. But it brings me back to the paranoia I had before when I was blogging on sites with so much traffic (myspace, facebook, xanga...) . I fear that I'm boring and that my writing is too simple. I will ignore these nagging thoughts and continue with confidence posting whatever I like in whatever form!
The last 2 days were the hardest days of my life physically. This is not an exaggeration in any sort. I still think they are better than the Oct 8-11, the week I found out I was having a miscarriage. The emotional stress and disappointment was hard for me, as it would be for anyone I suppose. Through prayer and having the courage to ask for prayer from others, I feel peace. I depended on God during the hardest times of my life. It always easier to say you will than actually doing it, and I certainly didn't do it in high school.
Back to the last 2 days physically- whew. I really don't feel like saying much about it on here, because its such a gray area of things you talk about with people. I felt weird talking about it with my mom! So, for personal venting purposes only, I am mentioning it. I am so grateful to have my husband and my mom at my side today!! And! I have to say nurses rock! They took such good care of me and kept putting warm blankets on me!
My mom and I went shopping today even, for a fun treat, and I did actually end up buying some really cheap clothes- it was at Plato's Closet- the secondhand store in Plymouth. I love it! I even got a winter coat that doesn't poof too much and fits a little snug, which seems good for a winter coat.
Why do musical artisits think its cool to put police sirens in their songs?!!! It annoys me so much. It was cool the first time, and from then on, especially in my car, I think that a cop is pulling me over. I bought the new Weezer cd- the Red one - and its my first complaint so that's not bad.
I'm soooo tired from getting up at 3 am this morning!!! But, I am too stubborn to go to bed because I know I wake up in 10 hours, which would be 7. I don't want to be sitting around waiting to go to work at 9! It's just a weird thing but I can't stand getting up too early. It throws off my whole morning routine. Also, it may end up that I sleep all the way to 8 anyway and that is 11 hours of sleep! I don't need that much.
OOoo, the Weezer album is redeemed! I just heard the lyrics stating that so what if Weezer is popular and is played on the radio. Go Weezer! I think its great that they keep making albums. Everything must change, its the way life works. If music stayed the same it would be so boring! It's like my buying "skater shoes" - etnies to be exact. I love them and they are actually quite durable, and I encourage the "fad". Yes, I do feel like I'm selling out a little, not being true to my roots, but its ok!! Do I want to dress like the 90's or when I was in college forever? No of course not. Yes, I did buy cropped hoodies and longer shirts and like them.
Oh gosh, life isn't about clothes, I'm being silly. I just like to express myself in every way possible and the clothes are the fastest and easiest way to do that. I do have views on politics, morals, and other things but I guess I'm too scared to talk about them. Ok, signing off to sleep, and putting Bryan at rest too (i have long nails... makes typing loud).
I enjoy that you can "follow" blogs on here now. I kept forgetting people's blogs and what they are called. Now I can find them easily. But it brings me back to the paranoia I had before when I was blogging on sites with so much traffic (myspace, facebook, xanga...) . I fear that I'm boring and that my writing is too simple. I will ignore these nagging thoughts and continue with confidence posting whatever I like in whatever form!
The last 2 days were the hardest days of my life physically. This is not an exaggeration in any sort. I still think they are better than the Oct 8-11, the week I found out I was having a miscarriage. The emotional stress and disappointment was hard for me, as it would be for anyone I suppose. Through prayer and having the courage to ask for prayer from others, I feel peace. I depended on God during the hardest times of my life. It always easier to say you will than actually doing it, and I certainly didn't do it in high school.
Back to the last 2 days physically- whew. I really don't feel like saying much about it on here, because its such a gray area of things you talk about with people. I felt weird talking about it with my mom! So, for personal venting purposes only, I am mentioning it. I am so grateful to have my husband and my mom at my side today!! And! I have to say nurses rock! They took such good care of me and kept putting warm blankets on me!
My mom and I went shopping today even, for a fun treat, and I did actually end up buying some really cheap clothes- it was at Plato's Closet- the secondhand store in Plymouth. I love it! I even got a winter coat that doesn't poof too much and fits a little snug, which seems good for a winter coat.
Why do musical artisits think its cool to put police sirens in their songs?!!! It annoys me so much. It was cool the first time, and from then on, especially in my car, I think that a cop is pulling me over. I bought the new Weezer cd- the Red one - and its my first complaint so that's not bad.
I'm soooo tired from getting up at 3 am this morning!!! But, I am too stubborn to go to bed because I know I wake up in 10 hours, which would be 7. I don't want to be sitting around waiting to go to work at 9! It's just a weird thing but I can't stand getting up too early. It throws off my whole morning routine. Also, it may end up that I sleep all the way to 8 anyway and that is 11 hours of sleep! I don't need that much.
OOoo, the Weezer album is redeemed! I just heard the lyrics stating that so what if Weezer is popular and is played on the radio. Go Weezer! I think its great that they keep making albums. Everything must change, its the way life works. If music stayed the same it would be so boring! It's like my buying "skater shoes" - etnies to be exact. I love them and they are actually quite durable, and I encourage the "fad". Yes, I do feel like I'm selling out a little, not being true to my roots, but its ok!! Do I want to dress like the 90's or when I was in college forever? No of course not. Yes, I did buy cropped hoodies and longer shirts and like them.
Oh gosh, life isn't about clothes, I'm being silly. I just like to express myself in every way possible and the clothes are the fastest and easiest way to do that. I do have views on politics, morals, and other things but I guess I'm too scared to talk about them. Ok, signing off to sleep, and putting Bryan at rest too (i have long nails... makes typing loud).
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