I feel alone, and already sad as if I already had my last day at work. I feel the weight of missing so many people on my shoulders. I really dislike missing people. It's a very silly thing to dislike because life is filled with missing people and in a way, it makes life more meaningful if we even have people to miss. I just wish I could stay in touch better. Email, at least, makes this somewhat possible.
There's so many normal things stressing me out. If everyone is upset about the same thing I feel like its pointless to be upset about it. It should be just an accepted reality. The main thing I'm talking about is MONEY. No one has enough of it, especially now, so its the last thing I want to hear anyone complain about, but its the first thing on everyone's mind.
I'm also really sad that a new friend is moving away. REALLY sad.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I think I talk too much at work. I need to start getting my thoughts out by writing again, then I'm not forcing anyone to listen or be distracted at work.
My random complaint is that my allergies must be acting up again. This is my first winter being "healthy" after all my sinus and allergies problems. I was good until lately, I feel soooo abnormally tired, and my sinuses hurt all the time- making my head feel like a hundred pounds. I already went on antibiotics during christmas because i started aching head to toe and stuff, but the healthyness didn't last long after. I vacuumed today and will keep up on that and brushing my cats.
It's very hard to be at work, trying not to think about it being my last weeks, trying not to be super buddy with kids because i know I'm leaving, and still trying to do a good job because I don't want to slack off.
I just watched the Clash DVD. It was enjoyable.
My random complaint is that my allergies must be acting up again. This is my first winter being "healthy" after all my sinus and allergies problems. I was good until lately, I feel soooo abnormally tired, and my sinuses hurt all the time- making my head feel like a hundred pounds. I already went on antibiotics during christmas because i started aching head to toe and stuff, but the healthyness didn't last long after. I vacuumed today and will keep up on that and brushing my cats.
It's very hard to be at work, trying not to think about it being my last weeks, trying not to be super buddy with kids because i know I'm leaving, and still trying to do a good job because I don't want to slack off.
I just watched the Clash DVD. It was enjoyable.
Friday, December 26, 2008
hm
I wish I could be happier but its my own fault this week that my gloom and doom takes over. I thought that I would have so much fun here, why not, right? But, i didn't count on waking up Tuesday feeling like a truck hit me, then driving longer than necessary on wed (and later than we planned) missing out on activities.
Saw Marley and Me, yeah a great movie if you like to spend your day crying your eyes out. I like to be entertained at the theater not be embarrassed by my swollen red eyes and feeling depressed. They trick you into laughing through half the movie and then slap you with reality, as life often does, and bam you are grabbing you kleenex and wondering why do anything in life.
I'm being bah humbug and just need to "shape up!" Even my caribou coffee made me stomach feel like its inside out.
Saw Marley and Me, yeah a great movie if you like to spend your day crying your eyes out. I like to be entertained at the theater not be embarrassed by my swollen red eyes and feeling depressed. They trick you into laughing through half the movie and then slap you with reality, as life often does, and bam you are grabbing you kleenex and wondering why do anything in life.
I'm being bah humbug and just need to "shape up!" Even my caribou coffee made me stomach feel like its inside out.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Twilight Review
I read Twilight in less than one week. It was amazing. The emotion, interactions, descriptions.... amazing. This book has gotten so many people to read an actual book. Almost every female I know has read this book, even as long as it is, or has heard of it.
The movie pales in comparison. But, of course it does! It would be very hard to find an actual person as beautiful as the vampires were described, especially with acting talent. With the descriptions of all the characters being so perfectly envisioned, I feel like the actors and actresses had their work cut out for them. However, the director - Catherine Hardwicke - did a horrible job of directing these actors/actresses!!! I didn't feel emotionally moved by the movie, which is surprising considering the book. The scenes looked like it was trying to be reality tv, or like "the hills". (I've only see 10 minutes of Hills episode before turning it off in disgust). My friend said it looked like a B movie and I absolutely agree, but the worst kind of B movie. I'm even fond of quite a few B movies but this one teetered more on awkward than unique. If she directs the next movie, New Moon, which I read it last week, I probably won't even go see it. She doesn't deserve to have the record for best opening weekend for a female director.
I enjoyed Edward and Bella's acting most of the time, and think it was fault of the screenwriter for any awkwardness. The casting of about half the characters was perfect, but the other half made it painful to watch. Why were such unknown actors (and untalented) cast for this big of a movie?? The movie skipped around a lot and if i probably only enjoyed it as much as i did because I had read the book.
Apparently- due to the numbers, everything i just critisized doesn't matter. Talent doesn't seem matter. The fan base, Edward's "hotness factor", and perhaps publicity, made this movie successful. Not the talent, the script, or the directing. Hardwicke and Rosenberg (screenwriter) are just riding the wave of Stephenie Meyer's brillantly entertaining novel.
Strangely enough, after my rant on perserving talent and not selling out, I would say I'd see the movie again in the future. And I'm sure kids and perhaps teenagers who don't care how bad the directing is would see it again. I did enjoy seeing some parts and it is fun to see parts of the book in action. I feel like i would have a clearer perspective of the movie if i saw it again, whether it be better or worse.
The movie pales in comparison. But, of course it does! It would be very hard to find an actual person as beautiful as the vampires were described, especially with acting talent. With the descriptions of all the characters being so perfectly envisioned, I feel like the actors and actresses had their work cut out for them. However, the director - Catherine Hardwicke - did a horrible job of directing these actors/actresses!!! I didn't feel emotionally moved by the movie, which is surprising considering the book. The scenes looked like it was trying to be reality tv, or like "the hills". (I've only see 10 minutes of Hills episode before turning it off in disgust). My friend said it looked like a B movie and I absolutely agree, but the worst kind of B movie. I'm even fond of quite a few B movies but this one teetered more on awkward than unique. If she directs the next movie, New Moon, which I read it last week, I probably won't even go see it. She doesn't deserve to have the record for best opening weekend for a female director.
I enjoyed Edward and Bella's acting most of the time, and think it was fault of the screenwriter for any awkwardness. The casting of about half the characters was perfect, but the other half made it painful to watch. Why were such unknown actors (and untalented) cast for this big of a movie?? The movie skipped around a lot and if i probably only enjoyed it as much as i did because I had read the book.
Apparently- due to the numbers, everything i just critisized doesn't matter. Talent doesn't seem matter. The fan base, Edward's "hotness factor", and perhaps publicity, made this movie successful. Not the talent, the script, or the directing. Hardwicke and Rosenberg (screenwriter) are just riding the wave of Stephenie Meyer's brillantly entertaining novel.
Strangely enough, after my rant on perserving talent and not selling out, I would say I'd see the movie again in the future. And I'm sure kids and perhaps teenagers who don't care how bad the directing is would see it again. I did enjoy seeing some parts and it is fun to see parts of the book in action. I feel like i would have a clearer perspective of the movie if i saw it again, whether it be better or worse.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I find joy in new gadgets/experiences.....
but they make me so nervous and sometimes anxious!
I enjoy that you can "follow" blogs on here now. I kept forgetting people's blogs and what they are called. Now I can find them easily. But it brings me back to the paranoia I had before when I was blogging on sites with so much traffic (myspace, facebook, xanga...) . I fear that I'm boring and that my writing is too simple. I will ignore these nagging thoughts and continue with confidence posting whatever I like in whatever form!
The last 2 days were the hardest days of my life physically. This is not an exaggeration in any sort. I still think they are better than the Oct 8-11, the week I found out I was having a miscarriage. The emotional stress and disappointment was hard for me, as it would be for anyone I suppose. Through prayer and having the courage to ask for prayer from others, I feel peace. I depended on God during the hardest times of my life. It always easier to say you will than actually doing it, and I certainly didn't do it in high school.
Back to the last 2 days physically- whew. I really don't feel like saying much about it on here, because its such a gray area of things you talk about with people. I felt weird talking about it with my mom! So, for personal venting purposes only, I am mentioning it. I am so grateful to have my husband and my mom at my side today!! And! I have to say nurses rock! They took such good care of me and kept putting warm blankets on me!
My mom and I went shopping today even, for a fun treat, and I did actually end up buying some really cheap clothes- it was at Plato's Closet- the secondhand store in Plymouth. I love it! I even got a winter coat that doesn't poof too much and fits a little snug, which seems good for a winter coat.
Why do musical artisits think its cool to put police sirens in their songs?!!! It annoys me so much. It was cool the first time, and from then on, especially in my car, I think that a cop is pulling me over. I bought the new Weezer cd- the Red one - and its my first complaint so that's not bad.
I'm soooo tired from getting up at 3 am this morning!!! But, I am too stubborn to go to bed because I know I wake up in 10 hours, which would be 7. I don't want to be sitting around waiting to go to work at 9! It's just a weird thing but I can't stand getting up too early. It throws off my whole morning routine. Also, it may end up that I sleep all the way to 8 anyway and that is 11 hours of sleep! I don't need that much.
OOoo, the Weezer album is redeemed! I just heard the lyrics stating that so what if Weezer is popular and is played on the radio. Go Weezer! I think its great that they keep making albums. Everything must change, its the way life works. If music stayed the same it would be so boring! It's like my buying "skater shoes" - etnies to be exact. I love them and they are actually quite durable, and I encourage the "fad". Yes, I do feel like I'm selling out a little, not being true to my roots, but its ok!! Do I want to dress like the 90's or when I was in college forever? No of course not. Yes, I did buy cropped hoodies and longer shirts and like them.
Oh gosh, life isn't about clothes, I'm being silly. I just like to express myself in every way possible and the clothes are the fastest and easiest way to do that. I do have views on politics, morals, and other things but I guess I'm too scared to talk about them. Ok, signing off to sleep, and putting Bryan at rest too (i have long nails... makes typing loud).
I enjoy that you can "follow" blogs on here now. I kept forgetting people's blogs and what they are called. Now I can find them easily. But it brings me back to the paranoia I had before when I was blogging on sites with so much traffic (myspace, facebook, xanga...) . I fear that I'm boring and that my writing is too simple. I will ignore these nagging thoughts and continue with confidence posting whatever I like in whatever form!
The last 2 days were the hardest days of my life physically. This is not an exaggeration in any sort. I still think they are better than the Oct 8-11, the week I found out I was having a miscarriage. The emotional stress and disappointment was hard for me, as it would be for anyone I suppose. Through prayer and having the courage to ask for prayer from others, I feel peace. I depended on God during the hardest times of my life. It always easier to say you will than actually doing it, and I certainly didn't do it in high school.
Back to the last 2 days physically- whew. I really don't feel like saying much about it on here, because its such a gray area of things you talk about with people. I felt weird talking about it with my mom! So, for personal venting purposes only, I am mentioning it. I am so grateful to have my husband and my mom at my side today!! And! I have to say nurses rock! They took such good care of me and kept putting warm blankets on me!
My mom and I went shopping today even, for a fun treat, and I did actually end up buying some really cheap clothes- it was at Plato's Closet- the secondhand store in Plymouth. I love it! I even got a winter coat that doesn't poof too much and fits a little snug, which seems good for a winter coat.
Why do musical artisits think its cool to put police sirens in their songs?!!! It annoys me so much. It was cool the first time, and from then on, especially in my car, I think that a cop is pulling me over. I bought the new Weezer cd- the Red one - and its my first complaint so that's not bad.
I'm soooo tired from getting up at 3 am this morning!!! But, I am too stubborn to go to bed because I know I wake up in 10 hours, which would be 7. I don't want to be sitting around waiting to go to work at 9! It's just a weird thing but I can't stand getting up too early. It throws off my whole morning routine. Also, it may end up that I sleep all the way to 8 anyway and that is 11 hours of sleep! I don't need that much.
OOoo, the Weezer album is redeemed! I just heard the lyrics stating that so what if Weezer is popular and is played on the radio. Go Weezer! I think its great that they keep making albums. Everything must change, its the way life works. If music stayed the same it would be so boring! It's like my buying "skater shoes" - etnies to be exact. I love them and they are actually quite durable, and I encourage the "fad". Yes, I do feel like I'm selling out a little, not being true to my roots, but its ok!! Do I want to dress like the 90's or when I was in college forever? No of course not. Yes, I did buy cropped hoodies and longer shirts and like them.
Oh gosh, life isn't about clothes, I'm being silly. I just like to express myself in every way possible and the clothes are the fastest and easiest way to do that. I do have views on politics, morals, and other things but I guess I'm too scared to talk about them. Ok, signing off to sleep, and putting Bryan at rest too (i have long nails... makes typing loud).
Friday, September 5, 2008
Update
Today, my fever is lower. I am still weak and its hard to do much activity, like make myself lunch or walk around, but I'm feeling better overall. I'm so glad I took the day off to rest and get better!
Yesterday was tough, working while sick at a strange place I've been. I went to go work in St. Louis Park. It is a big center! So many children!! I was overwhelmed.
Found this while surfing the web on my boring sick day:
http://www.jobvent.com/lowestRanked.php?PageNum=2
Apparently, working at Hollywood Video or going back to Petsmart would be a better work environment than KinderCare. I'm glad our center isn't as bad as most.
Washington was fun! We were there from Wed-Mon early morning. Thursday, we went to Rosario Beach, as tradition. We visited Mandy and John and went to Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. Friday was the gaming convention which was sooo fun!! We played lots of video games. Saturday, Bryan went kayaking and I looked at boats. Sunday, we went to church and saw our friends and went to Bellingham to see Minnesota friends! Then I went shopping with Mandy and Bryan's sister Amy! It was so much fun. I can't wait to see them all again.. someday.
Yesterday was tough, working while sick at a strange place I've been. I went to go work in St. Louis Park. It is a big center! So many children!! I was overwhelmed.
Found this while surfing the web on my boring sick day:
http://www.jobvent.com/lowestRanked.php?PageNum=2
Apparently, working at Hollywood Video or going back to Petsmart would be a better work environment than KinderCare. I'm glad our center isn't as bad as most.
Washington was fun! We were there from Wed-Mon early morning. Thursday, we went to Rosario Beach, as tradition. We visited Mandy and John and went to Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. Friday was the gaming convention which was sooo fun!! We played lots of video games. Saturday, Bryan went kayaking and I looked at boats. Sunday, we went to church and saw our friends and went to Bellingham to see Minnesota friends! Then I went shopping with Mandy and Bryan's sister Amy! It was so much fun. I can't wait to see them all again.. someday.
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